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- From: an43543@anon.penet.fi (Graeme Carl)
- Date: Tue, 9 Nov 1993 18:34:01 UTC
- Subject: EXPERIENCE: Level Definition and Intro
-
- Greetings a.d'ers,
-
- The Following Series of Posts relates my attempts at
- describing some of the more notable of my experiences with
- psychoactives. In just over seven years I have "tripped" around 60
- times. During this period I have been paying careful attention to the
- effects of various dosages and have come to the conclusion that the
- dosage-response curve for both Psilocybin (mushrooms) and LSD is
- non-linear. This non-linearity is different from person to person but
- the essential shape of the graph is consistent. The following ascii
- diagram is an attempt to portrey this information:
-
- 5 I ooooooooo
- I
- 4 I ooooooo
- L I
- E 3 I ooooooo
- V I
- E 2 I ooooooo
- L I
- 1 I ooooooo
- I
- Iooooo______________________________________
- 0 2 3 5 13 20
- 40
- D O S A G E (in Fresh Mushrooms)
-
- I have scaled the X-axis in mushrooms, since this is a known
- quantity, whereas attempting to scale it in terms of micro-grams of
- LSD would not be possible without accurately knowing the dosage
- contained in paper trips. (Yes I can hear many of you proclaiming that the
- dosage uncertainty of mushrooms is much higher..... but read on!)
- The essential shape of the graph is all I want to get across here,
- since the actual dosage varies from person to person sometimes by
- a factor of two.
-
- Unfortunately the variation of LSD content in trips is very wide, but for
- a while, there was quite a few consistently strong trips going around called
- "Clear-Lights" (This was about 5 years ago) I would guess that two of these
- would place most people near the realms of level 5. In terms of trips available
- at the moment, I would guess that 4 or 5 would be necessary. All this is purely
- subjective of course.
-
- The mushrooms in question are:
-
- ****
- Psilocybe Subaeruginosa (Victoria Australia)
- CAP: Up to 5 cm in diameter,
- conical when young but later
- convex and umbonate, edge
- inturned when young, smooth, a
- pallid biscuit brown when dry
- but darker when wet.
- STEM: To 10 cm long, rather slender
- but often a little swollen
- at the base, somewhat mealy
- above, with a cobweb-like veil
- when young, which sometimes
- leaves a trace of a superior
- ring, but this is often
- lacking, whitish with grey stains
- and often blotched and
- greenish blue.
- GILLS: Adnate to adnexed, deep,
- close, pallid smoky brown
- becoming blackish.
- SPORES: Purplish brown in print,
- ellipsoidal, with a germ pore,
- 10-15 x 5-9 um.
- SMELL AND TASTE: None.
- DISTRIBUTION: Solitary or in groups on soil
- in forests. ACT, NSW, SA,
- Tas., Vic.
-
- Gutzman and Watling (1978) suggested that this
- species consists of four very closely similar
- species, which differ in the characteristics of
- the cystidia on the gills. (See Gutzman G. and
- Watling, R. (1978) 'Studies in Australian
- Agarics and Boletes. I. Some species of
- Psilocybe', Notes from the Roy. Bot. Gard.
- Edinburgh 36, 199-210.)
- ****
-
- On a personal note: They do have a faint but distinctive mushroom smell, and
- eating them raw really lets you know how bad they taste!
-
- In order to further standardise the dosage for testing, large numbers
- of mushrooms were picked (300-600) at a time. These were then
- dried at a constant temp, crushed and mixed to ensure they were
- homogenous. This was done to avoid the sometimes vast differences
- in potency that exist between single mushrooms.
-
- The following list is my attempt at explaining the various levels and
- how to recognise them. I felt that Shulgins "3 plusses" system was designed
- more for measuring the general level of effect, rather than specifically
- locating ones' consciousness on an accurate scale and hence I felt it
- necessary to define the following:
- Note that this is only an experimental "pigeon holing" of my own 60 or so
- trips from 1986 to the present (October 1993)
-
- Level 1:
- This level produces a mild 'stoning' effect, with some visual
- enhancement (ie. brighter colours etc) Some short term memory
- anomalies.
- Left/right brain communication changes causing music to
- sound 'wider'
- ["El cheapo" paper trips or 2 or 3 mushrooms]
-
- Level 2:
- Bright colours, and visuals (ie. things start to move and breath)
- some 2 dimensional patterns become apparent upon shutting eyes.
- Confused or reminiscent thoughts. Change of short term
- memory leads to continual distractive thought patterns. Vast
- increase in creativity becomes apparent as the natural brain
- filter is bypassed. (*)
- [3 - 5 mushies]
-
- Level 3:
- Very obvious visuals, everything looking curved and/or warped patterns
- and kaleidoscopes seen on walls, faces etc. Some mild hallucinations
- such as rivers flowing in wood grained or 'mother of pearl' surfaces.
- Closed eye hallucinations become 3 dimensional. There is some confusing
- of the senses (ie. seeing sounds as colours etc.)
- Time distortions and `moments of eternity`.
- Movement at times becomes extremely difficult (too much effort required)
- [5 - 13 mushies]
-
- Level 4:
- Strong hallucinations, ie objects morphing into other objects.
- Destruction or multiple splitting of the ego.
- (Things start talking to you, or you find that you are feeling
- contradictory things simultaneously) Some loss of reality.
- Time becomes meaningless. Out of body experiences and esp type
- phenomena. Blending of the senses.
- [13 - 20 mushies]
-
- Level 5:
- Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses cease to
- function in the normal way. Total loss of ego.
- Merging with space, other objects or the universe.
- The loss of reality becomes so severe that it defies explanation.
- The earlier levels are relatively easy to explain in terms of
- measureable changes in perception and thought patterns.
- This level is different in that the actual universe within which
- things are normally perceived, ceases to exist!
- Satori enlightenment (and other such labels) (**).
- [20 - 40 mushies]
-
- Notes to the above:
-
- * In order for the human entity to survive, it must learn from an early
- age how to shut out (or filter) the masses of information reaching the
- brain. This process of selective filtering allows us to become centred
- on a single thought. (Imagine being completely aware of all the signals
- coming into your body at the one moment, imagine being aware of every
- square inch of your skin and how it felt. Imagine being eternally
- aware of your tounge in your mouth, that itch on the end of your nose
- or the sound of the airconditioning hissing softly in the background.
- I believe that tripping brings back those awareness that have been shut
- out ever since we were three.
-
- Have you ever noticed children walking into a shopping mall? If you
- notice next time, they appear to be tripping, staring wide eyed at all
- the amazing colours, walking along looking up at the ceiling and
- and watching themselves in the mirrored surface. As childred age, they
- gradually learn to shut out the onslaught of information, they no
- longer seem to notice the world as their younger siblings do! By the
- time adulthood is reached, these sensations are even lost to memory.
- Perhaps this explains why so many first time trippers, seem to feel
- a strange sense of familiarity, a feeling that the trip reality is
- somehow more real than their straight reality.....
-
- ** Satori enlightenment, instant Zen, Nirvana etc etc. You may find many
- of these Eastern terms used in conjunction with Ergo derivative drugs.
- In my (humble) opinion, true Zen enlightenment is reached only when
- the ego has been completely overcome, only when the 'ox' has been
- tracked, tamed and ridden back to town. This, unfortunately cannot be
- achieved in the altered reality of the tripping universe.
- The 'flashes' of Satori which may be experienced by the fortunate
- whilst tripping, are perceived as momentary periods of absolute peace
- and calm, periods where for a short time, the ego is so diffused,
- that the mind is no longer enslaved by many of the passions that
- normally arise.
-
- I dont believe that true enlightenment can be attained by the use of
- drugs, but I do believe that exposure to such experiences can be very
- valuable indeed, and may provide the encouragement for further study
- that otherwise may not have been attainable.
-
-
- I have spent the majority of my trips at levels 3 & 4 and have now
- achieved level 5 twice! The first instance was mostly spent in level
- 4, but I had a few flashover experiences, where I jumped
- momentarily up to level 5 then down again. This state occurred with
- a dosage equivalent to 20 large fresh mushrooms (It was actually 40 dried
- mushrooms which has about the same potency)
-
- Two days ago I consumed the equivalent of 30 fresh mushrooms
- (60 dried or about 12 grams of dessicated mushroom) This dosage caused
- me to spend about 3 hours of real time (years and years of subjective
- time) inside level 5.
-
- In the following series of posts I will attempt to relate some of my
- experiences to you and classify them in terms of the Levels I have defined.
- I have attempted to be as objective as possible, hence the reason for the
- somewhat "clinical" style of the first two documents.
-
- Those of you wishing to "jump to the good bits" should read the post on
- LEVEL 5 or 'Journey out of the Universe'
-
-
- Please comment on the above theories. I will be interested to hear your
- opinions and criticisms.
-
- Anyway, I hope you enjoy this series.....
-
- Read on:
-
- Graeme.
-
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- From: an43543@anon.penet.fi (Graeme Carl)
- Date: Tue, 9 Nov 1993 19:22:28 UTC
- Subject: EXPERIENCE: Level 2-3
-
- The following story could be classified as existing near the boundary
- of level 2 and level 3 since the majority of the experience exists in
- level 2 but there are a few flashovers into level 3.
-
- The style of writing was reflective of my science course at the time.
- Please excuse me referring to myself as "The Subject" but it made for
- a good laugh. <-;
-
-
- "Mushies in the Evening"
-
- 12/06/89 A Study of the effects of a Psilocybin induced state.
-
- 10/06/89 Late Saturday Evening
- 1:40am consumption
- 2:10am still no obvious effects noticed, although some
- tightening of the skin about back of the head could be felt.
- 2:25am At this stage the subject was quite positive of a change
- in his perception of reality, walking felt different, although there
- seemed to be only a minimum impairment of ability. There was some
- degree of change to the sense of balance. A very significant
- reduction in the concentration span was observed. The brain seemed
- to be constantly distracted by an influx of new sensations. Each time
- the mind was distracted by something, the subjective time spent
- observing the new event was small, since the mind would very
- quickly become absorbed in some new and completely different
- event.
- Walking around attained a new quality. It seemed that the way
- the balance information was used, was entirely new, although still
- able to function effectively. Some time was spent just walking
- around in a circle to experience the new feel to walking.
- Sitting in the living room, looking through the bar/servery to
- the kitchen, a wall hanging could be observed to be moving relative
- to the servery window. After placing a bottle on the edge of the pool
- table, The plain curtains on the wall billowed continuously out
- towards the table.
- The patterns on the curtains covering the main windows,
- appeared to move up and down in waves, relative to the curtains. The
- cushioned chairs appeared to breath slowly in and out. The rate and
- timing of this breathing was independent to that of the subjects.
- Viewing the faces of other people in the room, the subject
- observed red and green glowing lines crossing their faces
- horizontally but following the contours of the face. One of the other
- participants in the room was wearing glasses, the rims of which
- glowed intensely red as though they were red hot, and the subject felt
- he observed fire in the persons mouth.
- When the subject tried to drink, he found that his arm and the
- cup felt much lighter than they ought to be and he kept lifting the
- cup too high to place in his mouth. It was as if something kept
- pulling the cup up too high so that it reached the subjects nose
- instead of his mouth. This was intensely humorous, making the act
- even more difficult to perform whilst laughing.
- The subject noticed that his arms feeling very light and
- seeming to have a life of their own, when told to reach for
- something, they reached out at a great speed with no additional effort
- needed on the subjects part. This continually surprised the subject
- causing him to repeatedly pull his arm back.
- In one of the back rooms there was a pillow which had a
- pattern of black dots on a white background. When viewed it seemed
- as though all the dots were swimming about relative to each other on
- the pillow. When a hand was placed in front of the pillow in the field
- of vision, the pillow's pattern could be faintly seen on the back of the
- hand as if the spots on the pillow had leached through the hand.
- The wall paper in the bathroom was a complex pattern of many
- colours, to the subject it seems as though the overall colour changed
- from red to deep purple and through orange and green. The subject
- also saw the white part of the pattern as being a glowing red colour,
- similar to the shade viewed on the faces of other people.
- When viewing the pool table again the subject could see sparks
- emanating from the points of the ball pockets and arcing down to the
- floor. When one of the cues was picked up and held behind the
- head so that it was out of view, the surface of the cue felt as though it
- formed part of a hoop. Running the fingers along the cue produced
- the feeling of a curved surface of radius one meter.
- When one of the other participants picked up a cue, it appeared
- to the subject that the person had picked up only one end of the cue,
- the rest of the cue followed slowly, such that the cue moved from an
- 'S' shaped stick slowly back to a straight line.
- During the session, there was a portable CD player playing
- music. The subject reported an extra quality of liveness to it and an
- increased spatial quality to it. Just purely listening to the music gave
- the subject far more enjoyment than usual, the sound seemingly
- flowing through him such that it could be felt. The subject also
- observed that the music could be seen emanating from the speakers
- as a sort of brownish flow of powder, although the subject seemed
- puzzled by the fact that the powder flowed out of the speakers as two
- parallel streams rather than in the direction that the speakers were
- facing. (The speakers were positioned such that they pointed along
- the sides of an equilateral triangle. One particular track which is
- about one and a half to two minutes in duration seemed as though it
- lasted about twenty minutes of subjective time.
- When venturing outside for the first time, the subject became
- fascinated by the stars and stood staring at the sky for some time, the
- subject noticed some extra stars which winked in and out of
- existence, although this was not what was so interesting. The
- transfixing part of the experience was the strange indescribable
- feeling associated with viewing the sky and the surrounding horizon.
- (The subject felt that he was unable to further define his experience
- at this point)
- When viewing the lights of a distant town, it appeared, to the
- subject, as if the lights were joined together by blue lines. The
- subject found great pleasure in exerting himself by briefly running as
- fast as he was able, he commented that his body did not seem to
- respond as it normally would, since there was no obvious quickening
- of the breath or perspiration after the exertion.
- Every object viewed seemed new and strange, each having new
- and unique properties, for example the texture of a stick absorbed the
- subjects full attention for a few seconds, briefly interrupting his plan
- to walk down some stairs.
- The subject attempted to do some writing and found that the act
- of writing was very different, almost as if someone else was moving
- the pen. The writing was fast and untidy. Some of the things written
- were:
- "I am writing this to prove I can whilst the table moves beneath
- the letters."
- "I don't know why I wrote this"
- At the suggestion of another participant he wrote:
- "I don't want to write <expletive>, so I wont! <EXPLETIVE>!"
- Some patterns were drawn, with an explanatory message added next
- to one which read:
- "The underlying pattern of the universe. If you look closely
- enough at anything, you will eventually see this pattern."
- The pattern consisted of three rows of circles, each row offset such
- that each of the circles of the next row touched two circles in the
- previous row. The subject saw this pattern in everything, it was most
- clearly visible with the eyes open and with a dim light present in the
- room.
- On the servery table where the writing had taken place, there
- was also a serving tray with a mother of pearl base. To the subject,
- the surface of this base appeared to flow like a slow liquid.
- Whenever the subject closed his eyes, he was presented with a
- dazzling array of colours and patterns. Most of the patterns were of a
- repetitive nature, resembling mandalas. The predominant colours
- were red and green and the predominant patterns were formed from
- circles and octagons. Some of the patterns consisted purely of lines,
- in some of the patterns, the lines consisted of square chains (all chain
- links had curved corners) Some of the patterns were three
- dimensional, consisting of the same basic pattern, but forming peaks
- and valleys. All of these patterns had the components continually
- moving relative to each other and the two colours swapping slowly
- between adjacent components.
- When listening to the music with the eyes closed, the patterns
- and shapes moved in time with the music, and new sounds in the
- music brought forth new shapes and objects in the images
- experienced.
- When going outside for the second time the 'underlying pattern
- of the universe' could be clearly seen as green lines on the surface of
- some small red pieces of metal. The subject decided to walk into the
- darkest part of the yard in order to test his sense of fear. This attempt
- was defeated by a sudden distraction. A piece of rope was tied
- between a tree and the fence at eye level, the subject then proceeded
- to experience the sensations associated with placing the rope
- between his teeth and tasting it and supporting his weight with it. He
- was convinced at one stage that there was a piece of dew on the rope
- which "stayed together" when placed in his mouth, such that he was
- able to move it around with his tongue. This entire experience was of
- such an intensely sensual nature, that the subjects awareness was
- confined totally to an act of raw sensation.
- 4:30 Approximate end of significant effects.
- sleep was attempted and eventually achieved after watching closed
- eye images for around half an hour.
-
- 11/06/89 Sunday Morning
- 10:30am Awakened, to find all effects gone, except for a slight
- image of the recurrent pattern on the retina. The subject reported
- that an attempt at a recurrence of the effects using self-hypnosis was
- met with only a very limited success, a slight increase of the visual
- perception of the pattern was achieved with relative ease, although
- further effects could not be achieved at that point in time.
-
- 13/06/89 Tuesday Evening
- 11:00pm Whilst in a lightly hypnotised state and listening to a
- track from the CD which had been playing on the 10th a strong
- 'flashback' occurred. The subject experienced the same feeling of
- strangeness, and was able to observe the furniture in his room
- breathing. The curtains were his main object of study, since they
- appeared to be moving in waves, as though there were a wind
- blowing them, the curtains seemed to be moving a total of ten to
- fifteen centimetres from their natural position with a period of
- around four seconds. The total effect of the movements experienced,
- seemed greater in intensity to those noticed on the 10th, although
- during the 'flashback' there was almost no detectable light patterns.
- Standing up and moving around produced the same, although
- somewhat less intense, feeling of strangeness. There was also a
- marked decrease in the concentration span and memory, with the
- subject forgetting why he had decided to get up and walk to the other
- side of the table.
- The effect latest around five to ten minutes.
-
- 14/06/89 Wednesday evening
- 11:30pm The flashback sensation re-occurred with the subject
- able to mentally force some of the visual experiences. The subject
- noted that the main difference between the drug induced images and
- the normal 'dream like' images is that the drug induced images seem
- to originate in the eye rather than in the mind and that the patterns
- were more line and circle oriented and glowed with a light of their
- own, in contrast to visions and images produced previously using
- meditation techniques, which appeared as though illuminated by an
- external source.
-
- The Long Term Effects Observed:
- The learned response: It was observed that the brain learned to
- attain some degree of these effects at any time and that these effects
- could be accessed via methods normally taken to access functions
- beyond conscious control. This fact appears to explain the
- occurrence of uncontrollable "flashbacks" in the average person.
- With further research into attaining these flashbacks, it was
- found that a certain degree of effortless duration to the effects could
- be achieved. When manipulating the mind in a particular manner, it
- was found that all the usual symptoms appeared, but that the sudden
- ceasing of these symptoms was not attainable. This may be
- explained by the possibility of the brain learning to produce
- chemicals mimicking the effects of the drug, or by the brain
- chemistry altering in a manner which would normally take the drug
- to induce. This effect was strongly observed when the subject was
- once again placed in the presence of other participants consuming
- hallucinogens. The subject found that for a minimal effort, he could
- achieve the same effect as previously attained with the drug, but
- without consuming anything. This second incidence was reported by
- the subject as being more intense than the original consumption.
- Interestingly during this second incidence the subject noted several
- new phenomenon which he later observed under the influence of
- pure LSD. These being mood shifts associated with changing music.
- Also the visual effects were not as noticeable, with the 'underlying
- pattern of the universe' being almost totally absent. This was offset
- by a series of intense colour and spatial distortions exactly the same
- as those covered in the partner to this document (LEVEL 3).
- In all three episodes the subject noted that during the
- experience, he felt very relaxed, and in fact under LSD his pulse
- gave a reading of 60 with normal blood pressure.
-
-
- Graeme.
-
- +=======================================================================+
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- | The Future but Dreams. ! Victoria Australia Earth (mostly) |
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- Message-ID: <200533Z09111993@anon.penet.fi>
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- From: an43543@anon.penet.fi (Graeme Carl)
- Date: Tue, 9 Nov 1993 20:02:09 UTC
- Subject: EXPERIENCE: Level 3-4
-
- The following account could be classified as a Level 3 trip with a
- few flashovers into level 4:
-
- "LSD in the Afternoon"
-
- A study of the effects of the intake of one "Window Pane".
- 22/07/89 13:30:00 Intake.
- The Subject was one of eight people, all taking LSD at the
- same time. The dosage took the form of a small red slice of gelatine
- called a "window pane". This was dissolved on the tongue. The
- subject noticed a slight but unrecognisable taste.
- After approximately six minutes the subject claimed to be able
- to observe some small effect, although none of the other participants
- noticed anything for around twenty to about thirty-five minutes.
- The initial effects took the form of slight apparent movements
- in stationary or fixed objects such as curtains flowing and benches
- and walls breathing.
- The subject then proceeded to ring a friend and get him to
- come over at around three O'Clock to drive some of the participants
- around in his car.
- The intervening time was spent observing and communicating
- with the other participants.
- At three O'Clock the friend arrived and the subject went with
- him on a twenty minute drive. During the journey, the subject
- noticed a severe perceptual distortion of time, space, velocity and
- acceleration. To the subject it appeared as though the car decelerated
- impossibly slow at traffic lights. The speed of the vehicle did not
- seem to be as fast as it actually was and the subject felt that cars
- turning into the street were coming close to crashing into him. This
- feeling did not involve any portion of fear. In fact the exact opposite
- was true. The subject felt that a crash would be a most interesting
- experience, although he did not wish it upon himself.
- Once the car stopped at the lights the subject began to feel a
- little uneasy, and kept telling the traffic lights to hurry up and
- change. The subject was quite talkative and spoke readily to his
- friend about how great the 'trip' was and how amazing everything
- was. After some time the subject became uneasy about being on his
- own with someone who was not tripping, and repeatedly asked the
- driver if they were nearly back yet. The subject lost all ability to
- determine his whereabouts. He recognised landmarks but could not
- place where they were in his mind and would not have been able to
- navigate his way. Once back at the house the subject was greatly
- relieved and suddenly felt that he wanted his friend to leave. He
- worried for a bit about how to tell him that he wanted him to go and
- would have used a simple statement like "Can you go now!" but
- found that he could transfer his wishes easier just by saying goodbye
- and waiting for his friend to leave before returning into the house.
- This worked and the friend drove off, without any hard feelings.
- Throughout the experience, the subject noted that colours were
- far more vivid than usual, the difference between colour brightness
- being greatly expanded. Also noted was the apparent increase in the
- difference between colours. Reds becoming more different to
- yellows than they usually were and so on.
- Once again entering the house, the subject mingled with the
- other participants.
- To the outside observer, the participants seemed to be
- constantly distracted and amazed by things which normally would be
- boring and uninteresting, seemingly finding something in these
- objects hidden from the perception of the onlooker. It is interesting
- to note that the 'extra' details and qualities perceived by the
- participants were constant from one person to another, ie. they all
- saw precisely the same extra details and occurrences simultaneously,
- even those consuming the drug at a different starting time to the
- others.
- At this stage the subject moved into the bathroom, noting on
- the way that the wall in the hallway was distinctly curved, bulging in
- the middle out into the hall. Once in the bathroom the subject gazed
- at his own reflection in the mirror, noting to himself how ordinary it
- seemed, whilst still watching, he then gazed into his own eyes and
- felt a curious sinking feeling. The subject had previously been
- warned about looking into ones own eyes in the mirror by one of the
- other participants, so was hesitant to pursue this activity further. At
- this stage the subject was just on the verge of leaving the mirror
- when he noticed a curious change in the appearance of his skin. It
- seemed to go a greyish colour and to assume a mottled appearance.
- Shaking his head and blinking to get a clearer view, the subject then
- proceeded to observe himself age with incredible rapidity. The
- reflection grew old before his eyes, the hair became long, wispy and
- grey, the beard turned a whitish grey colour and increased in length
- to around three feet long. The skin on the face became incredibly
- aged and full of very deep wrinkles. The eyes lost their brightness
- and became sunken sallow pits, the pupils shrinking from their
- previously dilated condition, to small beady pinpoints. Looking
- away from the mirror for a couple of seconds and then back again
- restored the normal appearance.
- Moving into the kitchen, the subject looked at the clock on the
- wall, it appeared to have every aspect twisted and distorted, for
- example, the time seemed ludicrous and the subject had to ask every
- one to see if the clock told the correct time or if it had stopped or not,
- secondly the second hand seemed to take around three minutes to
- traverse one second as marked on the face of the clock, and thirdly
- the clock itself seemed to protrude about half a foot from the wall.
- (compared to an inch or so as it should have) Afterwards the subject
- claimed that time had no meaning. It not only stopped but ceased to
- exist, things still happened but inside no frame of time reference. It
- was quite possible to think about some object for what seemed like
- an eternity whilst watching it suspended in mid air as it dropped to
- the floor. It became possible to observe a stop start motion of an
- object under the influence of gravity.
- At this stage the subject was given a piece of candle to walk
- around with, many of the other participants felt that they needed
- some object to carry around with them during the experience and
- they naturally assumed that the subject would as well. The candle
- seemed very odd and had an almost fluid plasticity about it. At one
- stage the candle seemed to blob down such that the ends came
- almost together and the middle bulged out and sat upon the hand as
- if the candle were actually a rubber balloon filled with water. The
- surface of the candle felt positively slick and it felt quite strange to
- manipulate the candle in the hand. It was almost as if the hand
- belonged to someone else or that some one else was moving it for
- the subject by remote control.
- The subject was then offered a piece of sausage which had been
- cooked and he was surprised that there was actually some possibility
- that a question of eating the sausage could arise.
- The sausage felt very strange in the mouth, there was a distinct
- distance to the whole affair, as though the mouth and sensations
- actually belonged to someone else. One of the other participants,
- watching on felt sure that the subject had been inadvertently eating
- the candle rather than the sausage and told him so. This rather
- disturbed the subject since he was not completely sure that he had
- not been. At this point an independent non participant was brought in
- to adjudicate the situation, and it was decided that the subject had
- not been eating the candle after all and it was in fact just the
- imagination of the other participant.
- One of the other sensations noticed by the subject was the fact
- that the mouth and face felt very odd. The part of the cheeks where
- they meet the cheek bone seemed continuously numb and the teeth
- felt distant and as if they belonged to someone else. The subject also
- reported that he felt that his mouth was physically lower down and
- distant from his eyes.
- The subject felt that things seemed to be more real than normal,
- since he could see more detail and further into any object viewed.
- Most of the participants had moved into the kitchen and were
- engaged in tasting and smelling things. The subject noted that smells
- did not seem distorted but only much more acute. Drinking water
- was quite an experience and the subject spent some time indulging in
- the sensual experience of swallowing, feeling the way the water
- caressed his throat. The water itself tasted strange, as if it had many
- other undiscernible tastes mixed in with it. The most striking thing
- about it was the way it flowed in the mouth and down the throat and
- the way the water felt as it was run over the hands. The subject then
- tried drinking some straight cordial, this, he claimed, tasted like a
- fine wine.
- During the experience there was a complete change in the way
- sounds were heard. The ear seemed to hear sounds impossibly
- compressed, with the loud sounds and the soft sounds being heard
- with equal volume simultaneously. At one stage the subject was
- listening to the music from the CD player inside a separate closed
- room and noting how perfectly the treble was coming through the
- wall, as if the wall was totally transparent to the sound. Also there
- was a distinct loss in the ability to distinguish sound directionality,
- this was most likely partially due to the compression of the sound
- volumes. The compression itself was not absolute, there was still
- loud and soft sounds, and the subject noted that his hearing gradually
- seemed to adjust to the new mode of perception such that sound
- directionality slowly became apparent again, though this did not
- reach its former level.
- The loss of the meaning of time meant that the subject had no
- reference plane in which to place the results of his decisions. Before
- initialising the change of state, the subject had decided to attempt
- two things whilst in the state, these being to attempt at some stage to
- mentally reverse the effects of the drug and try to force his
- perception back to normal, and the other being to attempt to enter a
- state of meditation. This decision was all very well when
- experiencing the understanding and knowledge of the concept of
- time. The loss of time meant that the subject understood that he had
- wanted to attempt these two things but he had no way of deciding
- when he should do them. This caused him some worry and he
- contemplated at one stage the idea of deciding an exact time in
- which he would attempt them, but then thought the better of this idea
- since he realised that he would be forever coming out and checking
- the clock on the wall to see if the time had arrived yet. The attempt
- eventually occurred when the opportunity for seclusion arose, the
- subject proceeded to an empty room and lay on the bed and was
- immediately presented with an amazingly vivid array of
- kaleidoscopic colours and shapes he quickly sunk into a deeper state
- although found that self hypnosis was almost impossible to achieve.
- The subject continued to sink into a deeper state and found that this
- meditation had the effect of narrowing the consciousness and
- allowing a more concentrated train of thought to arise. At this stage
- the subject noted that his mind had split into a considerable number
- of parts (possibly around twenty pieces) all of these parts being
- almost identical. Whenever the body did something it was only some
- of these parts which did the initiation of the action, whilst all of the
- other parts looked on and observed, occasionally placing comments
- into the field of thought. The subject found that he could not reverse
- the effects of the drug although he could synchronise his mind to a
- stage where he could easily hold a train of normal thought. This
- effect was held by the subject for approximately fifteen minutes until
- discussion with one of the other participants caused a lapse in
- concentration leading to a return of unsynchronised parallel thought.
- Returning to the lounge room the subject proceeded to play
- some music which normally would have been heard to have a fast
- tempo, this music seemed incredibly slow to the subject, the distance
- between the beats seeming to take around four times as long as
- usual, and when the vocals came in the voice was distinctly slowed
- and slurred. The subject also felt that the pitch was lower than usual
- and he proceeded to sing along at the slow speed with one of the
- other participants in a mocking manner. The track being played
- quickly reverted back to what was being played before by general
- consensus.
- One of the things occupying the subjects mind was the problem
- of whether or not he should be feeling hungry or not. The subject
- reasoned that he should try to eat food at around the times he
- normally would, but he felt no desire of food intake whatsoever.
- Another basic function which was distorted was the ability to know
- when urination was required. The subject felt that he might need to
- urinate, but he was not sure. He eventually went to the toilet to find
- out and he discovered when he got there that he did need to go after
- all. The subject noted that thinking about the act made it impossible,
- in order to perform the act he had to think of something else and
- allow his subconscious to perform the actions as if it were an act
- normally excluded from conscious control.
- The subject distantly heard someone talking about going to the
- local shop to buy some food and drink. Pricking up his ears, he
- instantly rushed out to give his order. After he and the three others
- had finished deciding what they wanted, they suddenly discovered
- that there was no-one to go to the shop except themselves. The four
- of them then proceeded to walk to the shop, since driving was
- completely out of the question in their given states. It seemed to take
- forever to get to the shops, with many pauses along the way to
- observe items of interest along the side of the road in peoples front
- gardens.
- Upon reaching the shops, the subject looked into one of the
- windows and observed that one of the shop owner's eyes had come
- loose from his head and was following his progress past the shop by
- sliding along the side of the proprietors head. This was viewed by
- the subject as intensely amusing, since the shop owner has badly
- turned eyes under normal circumstances
- Entering the fish and chip shop was an experience in itself
- everything in the shop moved and shimmered and the subject found
- he had to restrain himself from staring at things and try to look as
- normal as possible. There was around five other people in the shop,
- and the participants had to keep putting off the shop owner with
- "we're still thinking" each time he asked for their order. It was very
- hard to decide what items should be purchased and what quantities to
- get. After the order was made the participants were presented with a
- numbered ticket, and they found that they had to continually keep
- checking the ticket to make sure that their number was not being
- called. Two of the participants could not keep themselves from
- laughing and eventually had to leave the shop. To the subject it
- seemed that the shop owner felt that they were laughing at him
- because of his turned eye, although he seemed to be used to people
- laughing at him and accepted it with an air of persecuted defeat.
- Back at the House:
- One of the other participants was keen on attempting to swap
- bodies with the subject. The two sat opposed with joined hands and
- proceeded to stare into each others eyes. The subject noted that the
- others face became more and more defined, eventually assuming
- incredible detail. Also observed was the fact that the other persons
- head kept changing shape and the skin kept altering in hue. The
- other person was a nineteen year old girl with very light blue eyes
- and hair medium in length. The subject noted that he did not feel the
- sinking sensation as strongly as he had when looking into his own
- eyes or into one of the other male participants eyes. After a short
- time the subject seemed to loose feeling and control over his
- shoulders and it seemed that when he tried to move them that the
- other persons shoulders moved. This did not surprise the subject at
- the time and he continued to stare into the eyes of the other person.
- At this stage there was a sudden shift in the colour of the
- surrounding room and the subject found himself staring into a third
- eye which had appeared in the exact centre of the girls forehead.
- This new eye was of a distinctly darker colour and did not possess
- the usual attributes associated with eyes, such as lashes and lids. The
- new eye seemed different from the rest of reality in that it was not
- clearly defined and seemed more deeply sunken in the head. Staring
- into this eye produced the sinking feeling ten time easier than staring
- into the normal eyes, and the subject forced himself to look away.
- Into his field of vision came several other of the participants, each
- having a dark spot in the centre of their foreheads. The subject was
- surprised and thought that he must have been going cross-eyed in
- order to be able to perceive this other eye. He then proceeded to test
- this theory by forcing himself to see another eye on the girls head.
- This induced eye was in the centre of the forehead and looked totally
- different to the darker eye. Also bits of the bridge of the nose
- distorted its appearance. The subject then noted that by going cross
- eyes he had forced himself to see two of the darker eyes as well.
- Breaking the hand contact with the girl the subject noted that the
- darker eye flashed out of perception.
- At this stage it was early morning the following day and many
- of the participants were beginning to 'come down'. The subject
- seemed able to observe this in the other participants. He felt that
- there was some unique sense which allowed him to see glowing lines
- connecting all of the participants who were still included amongst
- those in the state. The subject sat opposite a VCR and TV which
- were currently displaying a computer generated kaleidoscopic image.
- Above the television was a large colour picture of a forest into
- which, the subject felt, a part of him went wandering. Shortly after,
- the tape reached the end and the images abruptly cut off. The subject
- felt that this left a piece of him cut off inside the picture.
- Once of the other participants had brought a number of small
- tin bells of different sizes and tones. When these were rung, the
- subject noted that different coloured lights could be seen to emanate
- from the bells.
- The last participant to consume the drug, decided that he had
- come down and was about to drive home. Interestingly enough this
- precise situation came up last time and resulted in the individual
- tripping while driving home and relating later that it had felt like he
- was in a large spaceship flying over long white lines. The subject
- and two other individuals had decided to go to the local Seven
- Eleven store, all three feeling as though they were on the way down.
- Reaching the car it was decided that they could be dropped off at
- Seven Eleven. The car journey was absolutely fascinating. Riding in
- the car gave the participants the feeling that they were riding in a
- large, immensely strong and sturdy machine of incredible weight.
- The journey seemed abnormally smooth.
- Reaching the shop the driver had decided that he was still
- tripping. (As expected) The shop was amazingly vibrant and vivid.
- At this stage the subject found that situations were far more
- manageable and he could safely sit inside his own perception of
- reality without anyone being the wiser.
- The two men running the shop appeared incredibly grey and
- dreary and seemed to be less real than the shop itself. After
- purchasing several items, the participants proceeded to hop back into
- the car. At this stage the driver was not so keen on going home and
- instead decided to go for a drive along the freeway. The further he
- drove the more intense his trip became but he assured all present that
- he was quite capable of driving and that driving was easy. The car
- reached speeds of up to 140 Km/h at which point the driver switched
- off the headlights and drove for a short distance with them off. The
- subject was busy observing the amazing colours and spatial quality
- of the sky and the lights in the distance and felt slightly concerned
- about the driver only somewhere in the back of his mind.
- The subject noted that when the car left the freeway that the
- lane into which the car moved seemed to be about a quarter the
- width of the cars body. Also noted was a curious effect of blue
- lightning playing about the reflectors implanted in the road.
- Upon returning to the house, the subject proceeded to lie
- between the two speakers in the lounge room and listen to some
- synthesised music. (Shadowfax) This had the effect of bringing the
- subject to full intensity where the complexity and clarity of the
- images observed with the eyes closed reached a maximum. At this
- stage the subject felt that a part of his conscious left his body once
- again, this time not entering a picture but rather to wander through
- the house observing the appearance of each of the rooms. The
- subject noted that his point of observation hovered somewhere near
- to the ceiling such that he looked down onto everything. In this state
- the colour intensification was at its maximum, whole rooms
- appearing to be an intense purple. Later on the subject had
- commented to another participant that he had been visiting purple
- rooms. The subject also noted that he heard the voices of the other
- participants strongly within the music, even though the others were
- in a closed room on the other side of the house.
- At the eighteenth hour into the trip, the subject decided that he
- should sleep, although he felt that he could happily continue
- 'tripping' for another two hours at the least.
-
-
- Graeme Carl.
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- From: an43543@anon.penet.fi (Graeme Carl)
- Date: Tue, 9 Nov 1993 19:54:54 UTC
- Subject: EXPERIENCE: Level 4-5 (Read This!!)
-
- Well, this is it, the last in this series of Posts. I hope you have
- all enjoyed reading these. (I certainly have enjoyed writing them (
- and experiencing them, for that matter))
-
- The following trip was experienced by myself two days ago and can
- be classified as a Level 5 trip. I have decided to switch to "First
- Person Singular" in order to portrey some of my feelings and
- sensations. I don't believe that it is possible for me to remain
- objective about an experience which goes so far beyond the
- explainable. Any impressions portrayed by this document can only
- be dim shadows of the incredible alter-reality of the experience.
-
- "Journey out of the Universe"
-
- Myself and five acquaintances decided it was time for another
- trip. All of us decided that we would exceed our usual amount and
- dare to move into the realms of the unknown. I had three times my
- usual dosage of dried mushrooms, the others increasing their doses
- by a factor of a half.
- The house was new to me and I purposefully decided not to
- explore it until things were really moving. It was an old
- weatherboard house and was mostly dark and cold. The living room
- was small but it had a crackling fire burning in the fire place which
- cast flickering shadows on the peeling paint walls. There was several
- candles burning on the mantle piece above the fire place and the six
- of use ceremoniously downed our dried mushies at "T minus 0
- minutes" (around 8:00 pm)
- I had brought my video player over and a "Trippatronics" tape
- which I had created by editing bits from hundreds of MTV video
- clips together along with exerts from various computer graphics
- documentaries. Sid put one of his CD's into the CD player in the
- adjoining room. It was something by "The Art Of Noise". I found
- myself seated in a large beanbag facing the fire, with the TV on my
- right at 90 degrees to my field of vision. I wasn't too interested in
- being able to see the screen since I had watched it countless times
- before whilst tripping.
- Someone looked at a clock and announced that it was 8:10 pm,
- I quickly calculated that things would be settling back to normal at
- around 1:00am in the morning.
- We all sat around, not saying much. The couple that owned the
- house were not that well known to me so I was a little concerned
- about tripping with them, but not too much.
- Ten minutes later at 8:20 I noticed something jump out from
- the TV screen and sail through the air towards Melony, she seemed
- not to notice. Ah Haaar. The trip begins. I usually notice the onset
- before everyone else so I wasn't too worried about seeing things this
- early.
- At this stage I decided that I needed to take a leak, so I got up
- to go in search of the toilet. The kitchen was to my right and from
- there I could glimpse the toilet door open through the adjoining
- laundry. I wandered through the laundry, feeling myself move into
- level 1. Once I was in the toilet I reached level 2. I closed my eyes
- for a second to check. First there was nothing, then a couple of
- seconds later the familiar two dimensional patterns appeared.
- Opening my eyes revealed that the toilet was already beginning to
- expand. The dimensions of the little room had suddenly doubled. I
- quickly relieved myself as I pondered the rapidity at which the trip
- was advancing.
- Back in the lounge I sat in the beanbag again.
- BANG! Things started getting really WEIRD!
- The fire became an animated city, Buildings and Cars could be
- clearly seen shimmering within the flames. Highways of tiny
- vehicles made their way along the grains of the logs. Several of
- participants began to "piss themselves laughing" at various things
- and I joined in, laughing so hard all else became invisible. I noticed
- that each time I laughed, the trip became more and more intense,
- although whilst laughing, I could perceive nothing. Sid and Mel
- were really getting into laughing. Mick and Carol, wandered out the
- back door of their house, conceivably to investigate the garden. Sid
- and Tim wandered to the lounge where the stereo was playing. Mel
- seemed still infected with hilarious laughing and giggling, she
- amused herself by watching some of the video. I was very quickly
- moving into deeper and deeper realms of strangeness. The beanbag
- vanished and became an incredibly comfortable wicker chair and I
- was just pondering how comfortable the headrest was when I realised
- that I had placed my hands behind my head and it was them
- supporting my head not the imaginary chair. At this stage I launched
- into uncontrollable shivering. "God it was cold" it seemed that the
- temperature had dropped by at least five degrees. I had to keep
- stopping myself from tensing my entire body against the cold. My
- jaw was chattering mercilessly and I wished that these amphetamine-
- like effects did not occur with psychoactive drugs. Eventually they
- faded and vanished.
- I was deep into Level 4 at this stage, time had ceased to have
- any meaning. I watched holes open up and close in the floorboards.
- The room kept expanding and shrinking and the fire became a
- swirling blue vortex into which images from the TV were being
- sucked. I closed my eyes. And the image remained, it actually got
- clearer, so I opened my eyes again. No difference! I closed my eyes
- and held my hands in front of my face. I could see them lift up in
- front of me, but they were strangely warped and I could see the fire
- through them.
- Carol came back into the room and curled up into a ball in front
- of the fire. A few of the others wandered in and out of the room
- making various comments and then igniting more of the infectious
- laughter. I was busy laughing uproariously and observing the
- universe splinter and shatter with each cycle of the laughter. It
- seemed as though the energy released from the laughing caused my
- vision to fracture and fragment.
- I noticed that Carol was in a strange mood, she seemed almost
- angry and upset about all the laughing, she remained motionless and
- dark beside the fire. Mel broke into another fit of helpless laugher
- which gradually sounded stranger and stranger. Carol took this
- moment to exclaim aggressively to her "ARE YOU ALL RIGHT!!!"
- "ARE YOU QUITE RIGHT THERE!!!" This seemed to quieten Mel
- down a bit, but she seemed to draw in upon herself like a frightened
- rabbit.
- The music was weird and unrecognisable. Sid had only
- intended on letting the first two tracks play before the CD was
- changed, but no one had remembered to change it. Suddenly things
- started changing.
- Mel seemed to be getting into trouble. Her eyes had widened in
- fright and horror and she was making exclamations like "Oh no!,
- NO!" and starting to shout with horror. Something was wrong.
- Simultaneously my own universe jumped and flickered into new
- heights of weirdness. Things were morphing uncontrollably now. It
- became very difficult to work out what I was actually looking at.
- I kept thinking "Damn! my eyes have stopped working".
- Mel became more and more disturbed. Something in me started to
- realise she was launching into a bad trip, and this something decided
- that the most obvious answer was to change the music. I stood up. Or
- I tried to. My legs leaped to the standing position, but they had
- become detached from the rest of my body which was still resting in
- the bean bag. I looked at my legs in surprise. I could clearly see the
- backs of my legs and the top of each of them ended in a stump. Slowly the
- rest of my body floated up and came to rest in its usual position. My
- legs did not seem to re-attach properly and as I walked out of the
- room, they seemed to be a couple of steps ahead of me. I found the
- door into the lounge room and moved into the darker room, I saw
- Tim seated by the stereo, at least I think it was Tim. The only way to
- describe what my eyes saw is to compare it to the scene in
- Lawnmower Man where one of the protagonists had broken up into
- tiny marble sized pieces which were buzzing around like flies and
- formed the approximate shape of the body. Tim's eyes were separate
- from his body and I could see air gaps around them and I could see
- the chair through him. The chair itself had broken up into pieces,
- some of which were protruding through Tim. The vision was too
- bizarre, so I looked away to increase my chances of coping.
- Mel had started screaming by this point, the screams got louder
- and more frequent, until it reached the stage where she was
- continually screaming her lungs out. It sounded like someone was
- "Axe Murdering" her. I listened for a moment to the screams and the sheer
- horror contained within them. The fear and horror became real and tangible.
- It solidified as a material object, some sort of mental snake which started
- slithering towards the centre of my being.
- I shuddered and purposely distracted my line of thinking into the practical.
- Part of me started to realise that the Police were going to be called.
- Another part of me remembered that I was going to change the music.
- Finally I reached the point in space where the CD player was supposed to be,
- but when I looked in the direction I thought it existed, my eyes had started
- refusing to work again. The masses of swirling colours and shapes and
- perspectives that I saw was definitely not a CD player.
- With great concentration I managed to get the CD player to coalesce
- into a Level 4 image and I bent down toward it in order to change the
- CD. Halfway to the CD player the universe ceased to exist.....
- There remains almost no way in which I can describe what
- happened at this point other than to say that I had reached Level 5.
- Everything changed and became unrecognisable. When I say
- Everything, I do not just mean objects and people and self, but The
- Universe Itself became undone. There was no-longer anything in the
- ordinary sense. It was like being in an amazingly comfortable chair,
- but not existing at the same time. Vision, Smell, Hearing and Taste
- all became meaningless. They did not just disappear, but they ceased
- to have ever existed. Time melted into nothingness. I did not
- perceive time, but looking back later I can say that the subjective
- experience must have lasted literally years. There was no point of
- reference, I could no longer distinguish anything even slightly
- recognisable, although something somewhere could contemplate a
- great many somethings. It was not me. It was not anything like
- thought or perception. It was not anything which could be described.
- It is extremely difficult to even remember much about it but to say
- that it was so different to anything that it defies explanation!
- Woah, suddenly I was back, and I was still in the act of
- bending down towards the strange mess of colours I thought must be
- the CD player. I wondered who I was and why I was there. I struggled with
- remembering, but I could not make sense of it. I had no idea about anything.
- I knew I was tripping but that was about it. Whose house was I in? Who am I
- tripping with. Did I drive here or did someone else. What was happening. I
- really had no idea. This somehow disturbed me. But not too much. I recognised
- a Tim-like entity swimming around in my vision and exclaimed to it,
- "What's Happening?" and I meant it from the depths of my soul.
- Tim didn't seem to know either. The CD player pattern made itself
- obvious again and I realised that I was changing the music. My hand was still
- reaching for the CD player. Another thought occurred to me.
- "What do I do when I get there?" I could barely see the damn thing,
- how am I going to operate it? At this point I turned to Tim for help.
- "I need to change the Music", "Why?", Tim was enjoying it thoroughly and
- had not yet noticed the trauma in the next room. I explained the situation
- to the weird looking floating creature somehow, and between the two of us
- It only took about "6" hours to manage to change it. The CD player
- was new to both of us. It seemed to have way too many light and
- numbers. The buttons had something marked on them, but we were
- beyond being able to read. We resorted to randomly pushing buttons
- until the required result was achieved.
- The new CD was some classical guitar (Vivaldi) But after a few
- minutes it became apparent that this was not going to help. Mel
- continued screaming at the top of her lungs.
- At this stage, her boyfriend Sid had found her and was trying to
- comfort her. I was convinced that another change to the music might
- help. I ended up changing the CD again, several eternities later, to
- "White Winds" by Andreas Vollenweider, this seemed to have the
- desired effect after a while. Mel seemed to be responding to Sid's
- efforts at bringing her back to stable grounds. She related afterwards
- that she had completely lost track of reality to such a degree that
- she was afraid that she was going mad. All the normal anchors of reality
- had vanished one by one until there was nothing recognisable left. She became
- horrified that she was going to remain there forever. Sid told me later that
- he was watching her face, and slowly the expression on it would change and
- start to become distant, if he didn't immediately say something to her that
- she could grip with her mind, then she would withdraw and start screaming.
- Once she had reached this point, no amount of talking or touching could get
- through to her.
- My trip was still getting stronger, part of me was still worried
- that the neighbours were going to call the police, and another part of
- me was completely unconcerned and was in fact enjoying itself
- immensely. By this stage my body had disappeared, I no longer had
- any sensation of comfort/discomfort my eyesight was beginning to
- malfunction again. I could no-longer see anything of meaning. One
- moment I would be looking at something, then it would dissolve into
- a mass of swirling colours. The rooms of the house were beginning
- to move around and merge with each other. I decided that I needed a
- glass of water, so some part of me got up and went to the kitchen,
- leaving the other part sitting up against an electric oil heater. Moving
- through the halls of the house was completely weird. Parts of the
- walls, arches and ceiling protruded down into the hallway and passed
- through my body as I walked along. At one stage I walked through a
- wall and felt it open up and then coalesce behind me. Once in the
- kitchen part of me filled a glass, then I split into two again, one
- staying in the kitchen, the other walking back to the first body. I was
- now in three places at once. One in the kitchen, one in the hall,
- holding the glass, and the other sitting with Tim in the lounge. From
- this point onwards I again moved into Level 5 for some 3 hours of
- real time (I think!)
- Tim said something to me and I raised my eyebrow, it detached
- and floated off behind my head, I went to look at it out of the corner
- of my eye, but the eye came away from my head and floated off
- towards the eyebrow. Weird. I flicked my tongue around inside my
- mouth, and my head seemed to detach itself above my jaw, my
- tongue flopped helplessly about on top of the throat and lower jaw
- like a fish out of water. My upper head continued floating upwards
- and slowly bobbed around so that I could look down my own throat.
- My body looked like the lower half of a decapitated buddha sitting in lotus
- position up against the heater.
- After a while I stood up next to the heater and drifted in and out
- of the universe. For most of the time I had no Idea that I was
- standing. Mel was still breaking out into fits of screaming
- occasionally and at times I was so completely out of reality that I had
- to ask Tim, "What's happening?" I had no idea who or where I was,
- only that something was happening, the details of which I was
- unsure! He seemed to be in a similar state and responded with a
- shrug which separated his body into about twenty more pieces.
- Level 5 became the dominant state, with momentary flashes of
- Level 4, where suddenly the Universe would flicker back into view
- for a moment and I would realise that I was standing up or sitting
- down or more importantly, that I existed.
- Slowly the flashes of Level 4 became longer and longer. Tim
- said to me that He thought things were getting more normal. I replied
- that I didn't think they were (I didn't want them to) Eventually I had
- to concede, but I told him that we wouldn't be back to normal until at
- least 1:00am, he then replied that it was in fact 1:10am. Whoah!!!
- Things gradually became more and more normal as I sank into
- the familiar morphy land of Level 4, then I dramatically dropped to
- Level 3. The drop was so sudden, that I exclaimed, "What happened?
- Something has changed!"
- The final stages of the trip were long and slow. Mel had found
- reality again, although she and Sid looked completely drained. To
- my trippy eyes they looked as if they had aged ninety years, their
- faces were long and drawn and Sid's face looked like something out
- of the trenches in Pink Floyd's "The Wall"
- Once we were down far enough, we drove home. The car
- journey, as usual, was interesting and I was glad it was the middle of
- the night and I didn't have to cope with any traffic.
-
- CONCLUSION:
- I have noticed, that the various types of trips coincide with the
- levels I have described to a reasonably high degree. The jumps
- between these levels are usually distinct and obvious and when I
- have consumed a dose which is close to the boundaries of one of the
- Level transition states, the resultant trip is not a gradual merging of
- the two states, but more like a ping-pong jumping between the two
- states. The "Flashover" point is quite obvious with a striking change
- in the observed reality.
- Most of the trips I have experienced have been clearly at one
- particular level and in one instance I consumed an amount of weak
- dried mushroom (just the stems) , the result of which was no
- noticeable effect. After a couple of hours had elapsed with no effect,
- I consumed a further amount (approximately 1/10th of the original
- dose) at which point I was propelled into Level 1. (ie I had consumed
- enough to cross the Level 0 - Level 1 boundary)
- To me this is proof of the existence of a threshold effect. It also
- coincides with a number of recipients of "weak" paper trips reporting
- that they did nothing, whist others having the same dose reported
- getting Level 1 or 2 phenomena. It would seem that for the former
- recipients that their jump to level one dose is somewhat higher than
- for the latter.
- On other occasions I have noticed that (for me) the difference
- between 1.6 and 2.0 grams of freshly dried mushrooms produces no
- discernible difference, but that 2.1 launches me into a Level 2 trip. In
- the first instance, the extra 0.4 grams was effectively wasted.
-
- I hope this information is of interest. I have tried to remain as detached
- as possible, and have consulted many FOAF's for their opinions on my "Level"
- theories, most agree, but of course this type of evaluation can only be
- subjective.
-
- Graeme Carl.
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